My Dad's Words...

So my dad came into my room tonight after i had taken a shower and wanted to give me his advice. He doesn't tell me he's giving advice but he just spouts off his hate.

See its been a month since i came back from out West to see the girl and besides the "you don't talk enough comment" i haven't been able to get a hold of her (even though I tried.) She's probably screening my calls or whatever.

Anyways my dad had 6 comments:
1) Other girls parents are calling and i don't know what to tell them.
2) You are like a villian on the movies and tv.
3) You are a shame (that's a direct quote), if some girl doesn't like you what is your problem.
4) This house is a graveyard because of you.
5) God has a better girl for you somewhere.
6) You are past XX years, you are past the marrying age. You have to take what you can get.

When my dad gives his advice/hate, he's basically yelling at me. I mean his voice is raised and if i raise my voice back it becomes a tit for tat. So, my response now is to turn my back on him and ignore him. I hate it when he is like this, because all he does is hurt me. Well dad, this blog is right back at you.

Here are my responses to your comments:
1) Other girls parents are calling? Well first tell them to fuck off then ask them if their daughter is educated, oh no she isn't because she's from India and you can't afford it? Oh, you expect me to fund her education, well fuck off.

2) You are like a villian on the TV and movies. Dad you don't even watch movies, and the TV you watch is the 10pm news. What the fuck do you know about villians?

3) You are a shame - that's a good one, its now number 3 on the "let's support our son on his self-esteem quest" it follows, "You are average" and "You are a low-status"...no wonder i want to get on an anti-depressive. Can you imagine putting up with this shit for the last number of years? Its fucked...who's parents do this kind of shit?

4) This house is a graveyard because of you. Um...i come home, i take a shower, i go to my room. I don't bother you, you don't bother me. What the fuck do you want from me? Should i move out? Will that make you feel better? I mean then the house won't be a graveyard although the two residents in the house are closer to the grave than i am.

5) God has a better girl for you somewhere. Where? I met her and i got fucked. I saw and met the best and because my father never spoke to me growing up and i never had any legitimate male role models i'm supposed to believe there's someone better? Fuck no. God's a great joker.

6) Lastly, the marrying age discussion. Hmmm...this search started 3 years ago and most of the girls i've rejected or i've been rejected. So, who's fault is this? I go back to a previous post when i say, i've been mis-guided into thinking that by obeying my parents, getting an education, being a good christian etc. would get me the girl of my dreams. How much further from the truth that is. I mean fuck, my brother who disobeyed his parents, didn't finish his masters until he was married is much more happier than i. Why the FUCK did i choose to obey my parents? Its caused me nothing but hardship. So i guess the answer is mine, i was stupid enough to obey my parents.

I need a stiff drink, if only i could find the vodka that my mother hid.